Things are not going well. We've played around with bi-lateral and uni-lateral ECT. We've introduced Ketamine. I can't handle all of the magic-less bullets. Today, I had an appointment with my psychiatric nurse practitioner to review meds. We haven't been meeting during my acute ECT rounds because meds can interfere. Now, we are going to put meds back in and see how things go. I NEED things to improve.
I really need this to work....work well enough that side effects don't make me feel worse somehow.